Tuesday, June 9, 2009

I'm Just Sayin'...

I need a spa day, or something. Do they still make Calgon? I need to be taken away. You know you need a break when your main focus is to aggravate someone else. I mean, my main focus this morning was to get here this morning so I could call this woman who had really been aggravating me for the past two days. My intention was to wake her azz up. You wanna call me 16 times? OK, I'm calling you at 6:45 a.m. - deal with that! Unfortunately, I didn't get to call her until 8:15 a.m. my time, which was 7:15 a.m. her time. She was already up. I was really looking forward to that being the highlight of my morning, but she messed it up. Oh well.

IJS...I need people to exercise patience and quit ringing my phone off the hook.

I don't have any days scheduled off this week. My supervisor swore that Miss Annual Stress Leave was coming back this week. I knew that heifer was not coming. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to know that you don't take stress leave for 3 mere weeks. Come on, now. My whole unit was just over this place, yesterday. My sup came through asking us how were our weekends...I think everybody gave her some lame azz answer. She was real close to getting the Negro-Shenanigans picture handed to her on a post card, signed by the three of us. LOL! I didn't even turn around from my computer. You just assigned me 7 new claims, do you think I am thinking about my weekend? Go sit down. Chick breezes in here around 9:00 a.m., and leaves around 5:00 p.m. I see her coming and going - I get here before her, and 9 times out of 10, when she leaves, I am still here. To her credit, she has figured out when to approach and when to leave me alone. She gets 5 cool points for that.

IJS...I need for some of these managers to take a step back, and remember what it was like to be in the trenches.

I went to Starbucks and got a venti latte...it's one of THOSE days. I'll be lucky to get out of here by 6:00. K.C. is supposed to be down this way with his kids...he mentioned going to the rink today, so he could work on his backwards skating. I don't even know if I'll have the energy, but if he calls, I'll find a way to work it out. This seeing each other 1x per week is really for the birds. But, I guess I just need to exercise patience, right? The man has goals, and he's working hard to achieve them.

IJS...I need a smidgen more romance in my life. I've been on a 4.5 month hiatus...I'm ready to get back in the game.

I'm just so NOT where I thought I would be at 34. No hubby, no chaps, no house...just bills and stress. One of my friends from college has been married for 9 years, and they are about to have their fourth child. A girl I went to HS with, who is about three years younger than me, got married a few years ago and just announced on FB that they are about to have their first child together (she already has a daughter from a previous relationship). Just about everyone I grew up with has an established family life, except for my group of close knit friends (wonder why that is?). Well, my best friend got married last August, but they already decided they didn't want to have any kids. I remember, back in fifth grade, she said she wanted to have 5 kids...and already had their names picked out. LOL! Anyway, I just feel like I'm at a crossroads, and every decision I make over the next year is mad critical. I'll be 35 in January. Don't get me wrong - I am most definitely NOT going out here to randomly get married or issue forth some chaps by some cat I barely know. I'm just saying that if these things don't happen in the next year or so, I'm likely going to have to skip that chapter of life. That's sort of depressing, but it is what it is! I don't see myself popping out kids at age 42.

IJS...I know there are some good things going on in my life as well...I guess today is one of those days where I'm thinking about the not-so-good.

Maybe later I'll write a blog about the things I'm grateful for, and the blessings in my life.

6 comments:

Serenity3-0 said...

I'm not itching to get married, but the strangest thing is that each day I want more and more kids. Yesterday I wanted 4 more - all girls. Maybe it's PMS.. LOL

Marilie said...

If you have 4 more kids, and all girls, that will be a separate blog in itself, and I will be there to read it on a daily basis!!! LOL

Only way I'm having 4 kids is if I meet a man with some type of Zulu Sperm that splits my egg into 4. I don't have time to birth 4 kids. LOL!

KD said...

I am in the same boat with ya honey... I swear if another one of my aunts asks me how come I'm not married yet I'm gonna shoot somebody!! I know I'm younger than you, but already having a child makes me that much more ready. Who wants to have one teenage child and one in PreK?!?!

Marilie said...

@ KD - girl, my mom told me on Sunday that I don't need to get married. I can just find a nice sperm donor, and make sure he's qualified and nice looking. HUH? LOL! I'm gonna pass on that showcase.

They (family members) have finally stopped asking me when I'm going to get married. I think once you hit 30 they are just convinced that it's not gonna happen, so they stop inquiring. LOL!

My oldest brother is 13 years older than me, then my brother Jay is 11 years old, my sister Shelley is 9 years older, and my sister Pam is 7 years older. As you can see, I was the 'surprise' baby. LOL!

Au Naptural said...

You know I already support spa days, mental health days, and just leave me the hell alone days.

It's probably just one of those days. It'll get better. Most of my friends are still in their 20s and are getting married and popping out babies left and right. I'm happy they are happy, but... It hurts my wallet, puts pressure on me, and makes me wonder when it'll be my turn. And then I remember that I'm not ready yet, so I should just saddown and be quiet somewhere. LOL!

@ S23: 4 girls! Whew! Must be PMS. Or maybe you really want to go shopping? LOL!


BTW, I was the Oops Baby too. My brothers are 10 and 13 years older than me.

Serenity3-0 said...

@Au Naptural - I think that's it. I want to buy some little girl dresses and sandals.